A proud mama honors the babies she lost with a stunning image of her newborn little girl.


Can't stop staring at this mesmerizing newborn photo posted on Instagram by maternity photographer Michele Fetherolf?

Yeah, us either. That's why we just had to reach out to the mom of this beautiful rainbow baby—a phrase used to describe a baby born after a miscarriage—to find out the story behind the breathtaking image.

Alicia Caldwell's journey wasn't easy. She suffered two miscarriages after giving birth to her first daughter, Scarlett, before finally getting pregnant with Saylor and carrying her to term.

"I told my husband it was going to be our last try," Caldwell explained to Parents.com. "That I couldn't emotionally handle losing another child. However, I wanted another child desperately. And we got pregnant again...my issue was never getting pregnant, it was staying pregnant. I felt guilty that I never felt excited. [I was] just waiting for something to go wrong pretty much up until the day I gave birth."

But Saylor was worth every moment of heartache, Caldwell says, because of the joy she feels every time she looks at her. "She is my beauty that has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds," she told us, adding that the inspiration for taking the photo—which was Fetherolf's idea, by the way—was to let other women who are suffering know that they are not alone, and that sunshine follows even the darkest times.

"It was a way to share my loss as well as my gratitude," Caldwell explained. "It's a bittersweet combination of personal pain and joy. Every time I look at the photo it reminds me how truly blessed I am, and how all the pain I endured was worth it."

Beautiful image, beautiful baby, beautiful story.

Hollee Actman Becker is a freelance writer, blogger, and mom of two who writes about parenting and pop culture. Check out her websiteholleeactmanbecker.comfor more, and then follow her on Instagram and Twitter.