A new mom's rainbow baby post on Instagram will resonate with anyone who has been in her shoes.
The experience of expecting a rainbow baby is so complicated. On the one hand, there's nothing more beautiful than getting a second chance after undergoing a gutting loss. On the other, many people who have faced loss are understandably anxious about bringing a new life into this world after experiencing something as painful as a miscarriage or stillbirth.
It can be especially terrifying for women who have faced recurrent miscarriages. A woman named Clare just touched on the emotionally overwhelming experience of expecting and welcoming a rainbow baby, and her story and message bring up a really important point about how tough the experience can be.
R A I N B O W B A B Y 🌈 I didn't think I would get to write this post but after 4 miscarriages and a heartbreaking late loss we welcomed our rainbow to the world 17 weeks ago. We almost lost all hope and came close to giving up because our hearts and my mental health couldn't take any more losses. In all honesty it would have been the braver decision to have given up, but thinking about living a life without children was too much for my already fragile mental health. I was terrified during my pregnancy as I always assumed I'd be losing her at some point. The fear never left me and even at her birth I didn't think it would actually happen having previously delivered a sleeping baby. Not until she was in our arms could I open my heart to believe. She is worth all the tears we've cried and are still crying because we still cannot believe she is real. We will always be grateful for how lucky we are to have her as we know not everyone gets their rainbow. Our rainbow at the end of the storms, Sophie Esme (meaning loved) is our 6th baby. ❤️ . We were lucky to be referred to a specialist clinic at St Mary's hospital, London. They found no reason for our losses but they were a great support to us as they recognise the psychological trauma recurrent miscarriage brings. I also wanted to mention @tommys_thebabycharity for the amazing research they do to save babies lives. A donation is made to them with every sale of this t-shirt from @naturalmagicwear #survivingmiscarriage #recurrentmiscarriage #miscarriage #survivingrecurrentmisscarriage #pregnancyafterloss #lifeafterloss #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth #babylossawarenessweek #breakthesilence
Clare gave birth to her rainbow baby 17 weeks ago after suffering four miscarriages and one late loss.
"I was terrified during my pregnancy as I always assumed I'd be losing her at some point. The fear never left me and even at her birth I didn't think it would actually happen, having previously delivered a sleeping baby. Not until she was in our arms could I open my heart to believe," she wrote alongside a photo of her beautiful baby, Sophie Esme. "She is worth all the tears we've cried and are still crying because we still cannot believe she is real. We will always be grateful for how lucky we are to have her as we know not everyone gets their rainbow. "
Mothers who have welcomed rainbow babies—can you relate to what Clare said here? It's such a beautiful thing to finally reach that light at the end of the tunnel...but loss sticks with you forever, and we applaud this mom for sharing her story.