01-15-2014 12:49 AM
Hi everyone. I swear I've been reading but I haven't really felt up to posting. I'm getting really frustrated and depressed over TTC. I just feel like my body is broken and it upsets me that I can't do the thing I was meant to do. It's just...irritating. So, I had AF for TEN DAYS!!! But it was super light. I haven't been doing my temperatures because I just don't care right now. I am waiting for my next cycle so I can start Clomid again. UG....I'm getting really weepy a lot lately and feeling very stressed out. These past couple weeks have really taken me to a place I'm to immature to deal with. I'm actually starting to think like an adult instead of a teenager. I'm 24 and this past week alone I've signed up for retirement, started planning our first family vacation WITHOUT my parents, and applied for a car loan. I know these things sound dumb but I just don't think I want to be a grown up...If you need me, I'll be in my blanket fort...
01-15-2014 05:57 AM - edited 01-15-2014 06:01 AM
I hope so too, thanks Tara ♥ Work is like a petri dish, there are so many germs going around. I started getting a headache last night, and my nose and throat are feeling funny today. Oh gosh, really hoping I don't get something again That's great once you're released to your OB you'll be closer to home
Alexx: Oh sweetie, I and alot of the ladies here know what you're going through with this frustruation. So many screwy cycles. It's best for YOU to take this one "off", not temping or monitoring, just letting it go. How long has it been since you started TTC #2? I'm not sure on your background before and after having Adam. Aaron was a Clomid baby and Lucas is our little miracle from IVF. You are not alone in this Alexx, we are here for you ♥
01-15-2014 06:56 AM
I have been TTC actively for three years but my husband and I NEVER used birth control after having Adam, so 5+ years? I am just...fed up. I just want to have another child and get on with my life...I'm actually mad when I think about it. Like, why can complete f*$! heads get pregnant without even trying and here I am, married for 7 years, have a full time job, not on welfare....ug. So stupid...the universe is messed up. My sister has two kids, by two different men and doesn't have custody of either of her children. She is in rehab for heroin addiction. Thank god I didn't grow up with her...I'm sorry. Just venting...probably the same things you all have felt before. Watching dumb people have kids they can't support and never really planned or wanted is so infuriating...
01-15-2014 09:04 AM - edited 01-15-2014 09:05 AM
Alexx: Thanks for giving me your background, I might have missed it when I wasn't on the board for awhile after Lucas was born. Were your cycles regular before having Adam? Our bodies can be so uncooperative And, I hear you about others getting PG without even trying or really shouldn't be in the first place. Sending you ((BIG HUGS))
01-15-2014 10:24 AM
Alexx- Hang in there miss. I've had all those emotions through our TTC journey. Life definately doesn't make sense sometimes and isn't always fair. It's not an easy thing to cope with. I decided to go to a counselor for someone outside my circle to talk to about TTC and the overwhelming feeling I was having at times. I agree, being a grown-up isn't all that fun, but you do what you gotta do, right? I sure hope things turn around for you soon. Is it an option to seek out going to an RE instead of your regular doc? Maybe you need just a little more help than the clomid or some more studies to see if they can figure out a problem.
01-15-2014 11:00 AM
01-15-2014 10:22 PM
I don't think my insurance covers it but it's something I've been trying to do for a while. My doctor just won't give me referral until I've been unsuccessful for 3 months on Clomid. I really think I need a new doctor. I haven't had any ultrasounds or anything. Just my history and blood tests. I need something more invasive.