During August 2013 i was 9 months pregnant. I contacted my doctor because i was leaking fluids so bad i had to wear pads all the time. The doctor told me nothing was wrong and not to worry, so I went into labor sept. 10, 2003. On this night I went to the hospital with back labor pains. The next morning my doctor came in and broke the rest of my water about 6am sept 11 2003, come to find out i had a pin hole on top of my water and thats why i was leaking. After my water was bromen the doctor had induced me. It was my first baby so i didnt understand the reason to induce when i was already having contractions. I started to contract very strong without breaks. They did not bring my epidural till 12 noon. At 5:30 i was having a lot of pain again. The nurse came in to check me and my daughters head was right there. I pushed her out in 20 minutes. She was 7 lbs 0 oz 18 inches. Well the nightmare wasn't over! As soon as they took my daughter i did not know at that time but i was hemorrhaging. My plesenta had broken pieces still in my stomach, they had to go in to retrieve the pieces still inside. The Doctor(male) had to use his hand to recover so that means his arm and hand had to go bk in the smae way the baby came out. This was more painful then pushing my daughter out. He finally got them out and stopped the bleeding. I lost so much blood I looked very ghostly for the first year following my childs birth. I was then fCed with 3 laprascopic surgeries. 1. To remove scar tissue from child birth. 2. My new doctor diagnosed me with endometriosis because he found my left olvery flipped and attached to my pelvic wall. 3. I was doubling over in pain and the 3 surgery showed nothing so i had to get a colonoscopy at 21 to find out I have irritable bowel syndrome. Now 10yrs later I'm taking my chances again and am 4 months pregnant. My family, friends and myself are worried it may happen again! Anybody have this type of experience? Or have any info that can help.
I didn't have as many complications as you are having, but I did have a tramautic first birthing with my oldest daughter. With my second I did hypnobabies and I found a lot of healing in it and preparation leading up to her birth. Their births were night and day difference. I think it's totally normal to have fears relating to your first birth going into the second (and now for me, that first birth is my default and I'm finding myself having to work through it again now).
It helps me to remind myself that even though things didn't go very well with my first birth, they were an extremely rare set of circumstances and the odds of them occurring again are very very very small.
Each pregnancy is so different. I can assign to that. With my first I had no problem. Now am at my fifth n its my worst ever, what am going through now I have never been through with the others. So not because u had complications the first time does not mean u will now, just keep healthy n take care of yourself